Monday, December 28, 2009

#Music Monday ~Naija Representing

Merry Christmas again - I hope you all had a blast and it was filled with love and joy.. Mine was very nice, went to church in my new outfit (I'm such a baby still, but like on my bday I have to wear something new on Xmas day) and then my aunt's house for lunch ( I overdosed on dodo and fried meat men)... So have you noticed that after living so long in obodo oyinbo, your teeth is soft to meat 9ja style...but trust me I chewed slower but ate as much as I could...then went to some after party place, as in we didn't even leave the house till 2am, just one of the perks of this nation... I was tired but it was a very interesting night (lips sealed still)

Anways, everyone has already said their piece on the Nigerian terrorist and I have nothing to say except as Styl Plus is currently singing in my ear "Baba God o, our case o, na your Grace o" - God just needs to take control and we need to declare a day of prayer in that country and ask God for forgiveness... Nways this whole talk gave me the idea for our last #Music Monday of the year 2009 whoop whoop... Ummmm for real tho, you want me to beg you guys to contribute abi.... Oya please now, I beg u, pretty please (kneels down & bats eyelashes), thanks... So cos i'm proud of my country & I don't give shit what haters have to say (was really waiting all day for my co-workers to say something, so I could give them a piece of mind, but they didn't even breathe or whisper it, LOL) I am showcasing from some new albums and mixtapes I recently acquired... Lami, Banky W, Obenwa, Falz & ItsBeazy

plus I'm sure you have all seen the video of Zara's The Flyest and if you haven't I have it for you- imma say this lyrically our artists are awesome as in we can really go global but when it comes to videos which is why we are still backwards we suck, yes I said it...imma let you watch it and be the judge & see if I don't need to go be a movie director/producer already, LOL... It's funny but this is serious men, nways to the music.... Wishing you all a very Happy New Year ahead, I believe it will be the best yet...... P.s. I love you
Lami – The Truth… her Intuition album (think there is a link to buy it off

06 Truth.mp3
Banky W – Feeling it ft MI…….off his W Experience album (think there is a link to buy it off

10 Feeling It (fea...
Obenwa – Breaking Up………off her Therapy Mixtape (download for free @

09 Breakin' Up.mp3

Falz – Shakara…… his Shakara mixtape ….this song is just too hilarious men (download for free @

shakara w vox.mp3

ItsBeazy – Blow your mind freestyle……off his The Affidavit Mixtape (download for free @

Blow Your Mind (po...

Zara – The Flyest….let me know what you think about this video ok guys

That's it, till next time…..smooches

Friday, December 25, 2009

Miracle on Richmond St.

Merry Christmas. Feliz Navidad. Joyeux Noel. Buon Natale. Feliz Natal…… Happy Birthday Lord Jesus

With a lil tears in my eyes, I just say thank you Jesus, for bringing me this far…..see… (interrupted cos my dad calls to wish me Merry Xmas, that's so surreal)…I was going to say this time last year I was in Nigeria and my dad goes, "this time last year you didn't have a Masters Degree"…boooyaaahhhh, like I'm all the way happy now, so many reasons to be joyful… all have heard me be thankful a lot this year but I just want to say again, thank you to my entire blogsville fam, for real though you made a difference in my life in 2009 and God will bless you all so very much, and 2010 will be an even better year for us all in Jesus name…

Ok so enough with all the emotional bull…heheheh what's the holiday plans? I'm actually not expecting any comments on this post, cos I know you all will be having fun and chilling with fam and friends….not with blood family myself, but my best friend and her mum are my family if I ever had one so I'm my friends came from out of town(got a perfume set and usb, lol)….going to church in the morning, lunch at my aunts and I'm sitting my black ass on the couch the rest of this weekend jo….my idea of a great holiday

So guys, u know my venting on the last post wasn't personal right? Lol – I read something, hear something, and see something and I get all worked up…which brings me to my next question….. so you meet a girl/guy you really like as in you are seriously feeling this individual, it's just phone conversation and hanging out for now although have both eagerly in anticipation discussed having sex….you go in for a routine physical and they discover you have a curable(emphasis on the word curable) STD….question is, do you tell? Why tell?

Cos I said I will, here's a pic of my blonde hair…me and the besto killing it…lol….. I will take it off in a few

That's it folks, be safe….2009 was my year of no regrets, I'm looking forward to a bigger 2010… P.s I Love you

Tuesday, December 22, 2009


Imma get right into it….. The Male Species, the whole lot of them are bastards for real, as in this is not some kind of feminine emancipation or some shit, but how r u married to someone for 13years/ moreand decides to end it with a note and you fly away. I'm sorry how is this fair, nice, respectful, uncowardly? Like r u kidding me? This is why I will still respect a woman till today, because most will say it to your face, even though it hurts them to, they just won't run away and send the divorce papers by mail…jeez, can I just stay single and adopt kids already? Cos umm it gets harder to trust as I grow older …and by the way ladies, ladies it's a bloody freaking lie that you can marry a man that doesn't make more than you and is less ambitious than you…it doesn't work…..ok done with this topic
I like an honest man, I really do ….a man that just straight up tells u all he wants from u is sex and maybe the occasional sumone to hang with is a winner in my book….he is much better than a man who wastes your time and your emotions only to find out that all he wanted from u was sex and the occasional sumone to hang with….now with that said I can't do fuck buddies, I'm sorry I can't….btw it is hella flattering, isn't it? I was beginning to think I wasn't desirable enough. And again ladies, ladies except you guys are married, as in proper married & only after numerous extensive tests, should you have unprotected sex, yes it feels better but you have to be selfish about your future and your health, cos mmm go and get some std or God forbid HIV and see if a man will come near you then… ok done with this topic
So people, there is no excuse for one to be dirty o, and just because you shower each day, doesn't make you a clean person, if your surroundings e.g car, purse, room is not clean. Imagine going into sumone's car and all of a sudden you start to feel ants crawling on your body….omydays, terror ….I can't give you the full gist sha but people, hmm this was serious….lets endeavor to be clean please, por favor….ok done with this topic

So tell me why I am still having the itches and swelling, that I thought was once poison ivy…..the Devil is a liar, been in and out of the hospital…nonsense Doctors they don't know what's wrong with me? Just keep giving me medicine, I am on steroids o, can u imagine. The first day I took it, didn't know the side effect was to reopen ulcer wounds, I thought I was going to die…I hate pain, I can tell you right now nobody is allowed to be in the room with me when I am about to deliver…I will nearly kill somebody that day, I can only pray God makes it's a very easy delivery….It's why I couldn't make it for our Music Monday, and I do apologize…..

Speaking of which….Suru, if you would like to do the last one for the year…that will be nice and greatly appreciated….. and just to show how mad I am and how I can just switch my Music "Monday" today is some old skool classic Christian music…even unbelievers and Muslims alike, knew these if you were born in Naija that is…I do thank God for everything I am nothing without him and it feels like a great way to show that through all the complaints I have every reason to be happy and just say Thank You Jesus

Ron Kenoly – Mourning into Dancing

Best Song ever, plus the instruments used back in them days, I don't even think they have it again….plus see the outfits and hair styles, lol…I remember watching him live when he came to Naija, heard he was in town this year as well…..
Don Moen – God is Good

Beautiful Song, again with the instruments and outfits, but you can feel the presence of God I tell you, when they sing, like he was right there
Psalty kid's Praise- Love is the greatest gift of all

My brother rocks for still remembering this, but I loved loved Psalty till I was about 13 walahai – they made me want to go to church and love to dance….I wonder what kids of nowadays listen to now, cos this right here taught us the word, and was fun ….they had the best song "Cast my cares upon you" "If I were a butterfly" ….Xmas present hint people, Seek Ye First DVD by Psalty kids's like $6bucks, thank u, thank u
Stomp - Kirk Franklin

Ummm do I need to talk about this song? This revolutionized Christian music forever and will forever be a classic…
That's its folks, its all I got…..Feliz Navidad, I will speak to you on Christmas Day, enjoy your holidays all, and God will bless and protect you….

P.S. …I miss you RocNaija, where art thou? The holidays is not a good time for people to be A.W.O.L guys, I get worried…..

P.P.S…. I Love you all, thanks for everything…the year couldn't have been awesome without you…

Thursday, December 17, 2009

My Life According to India Arie by Tricia

Growing up my dad influenced a lot of the music I listened to. He was a hip hop kind of guy so I listened to a lot of Tupac, Biggy, TLC, Snoop Dogg, Bone Thugs, and Fugees. But just like change, I inevitably grew up and chose my own path. I discovered neo-soul and feel deeply in love with it.

Here is my life according to India Arie. Her songs speak to me; some have ushered me into and out of certain phases in my life. So here's my life according to her:

Artist:                     India Arie

Are you male or female:        'Because I am a Queen'

Describe yourself:                       'Simple'

How do you feel:                     'Beautiful Flower'

Describe where you live:              'Ghetto'

If you could go anywhere where would you go?      'Back to the Middle'

Your favorite colour:                   'Yellow'

Favourite time of day:         'Good Morning'

If your life was a TV show what would it be called?    'The Truth'    

Your favorite form of transportation:              'Can I Walk with You'

Your Best Friend is:                  'Good Man'

What is life to you?            'Beautiful Surprise'

Your relationships:                  'Complicated Melody'

Looking for:                         'Strength, Courage& Wisdom'

You love him because:            'He Heals Me'

I have:                              'Brown Skin'

Wouldn't mind:                    'Therapy'

Your fear:                        'Long Goodbyes'

What is the best advice you have to give:                  'This Too Shall Pass'

If you could change your name, what would you change it too?    'Pearls'

Thought of the day:                           'Psalms 23'

My souls present condition:        'Purify Me'

My Motto:                                      'God is Real'

You will post this as:                'Voyage to Tricia!'

Please join in and tag someone else. Choose an artist you like, cleverly answer the questions and try not to repeat a song title.


Hi guys, how you doing? What you just read was the much anticipated Special Music Monday by my first guest on the Blog: Ms Tricia. One of the reasons I love blogsville is that I will never have met her otherwise…she lives and resides in Kenya if im not mistaken and we have formed a friendship like no other…isn't that just amazing… plus i would have never have listened to this many India Arie songs as much as i love her - here Is a little bit about her in her own words….please go check out her blog, she has some of the most inspirational stuff you will ever find on blogsville and you can follow her on twitter @ …….Thanks so much Tricia, I really appreciate this

About Me:

I'm Patricia M. I blog at Pages of My Journal mainly about life and the issues of life with everyday reflections…Life is a beautiful struggle and I'm very passionate about it.


Please let me know if you are interested in doing a Music Monday Post as well – I will greatly appreciate some diversity and new insight to different genre or just your outlook to music. Hope you all are having a blessed week…Be Safe…

P.S. I am extra excited about Christmas now….just something about this season


Monday, December 14, 2009

Special Monday

Final Straw – The End to "Our Journey"

You open the book and you start to read,

"Ours is entirely very simple, no spoken promises of tomorrow. You see ours is just an ordinary love….boy meets girl….boy chases girl….girl falls in love……boy does to….." THE BEGINNING

This is a year later, fast forward and it will read "boy gets tired of relationship, falls out of love…… girl still in love, forced out of relationship". THE END

There was no ever happy after, no wedding bells, no honeymoon – just nauseating smell of regret and hopes crushed, unmet desires and broken dreams.

Maybe that was part of the problem, I put too much into this as I always do and although there were no tears, sorrow was abound for what couldn't be.

In my mental maze, I retraced steps and couldn't quite find out what junction either of us lost the will to fight for love. Headed in the same direction we were, but then we got stuck in traffic, stagnant for too long.

Patience waned and in the boiling sun, the wants and needs of each person became like the need of a cold glass of refreshing water….

Instead of us looking to each other to wade through the traffic, we took diverse roads….

Me clinging, starving for his attention…

He withdrawn and nonchalant…

Until such a time where we both realized we were heading in opposite directions

No more late night phone calls, sexually laced text messages, half - naked pictures

No more visits overseas, mind-blowing sex, fights over sports teams, dirty dancing

Instant desire to delete and erase all memories of him instantly overwhelm me

Click…Delete ….Fb




Click...Delete…my heart

Chapter closed and I know my heart will never feel the same

You close the book and feel the pain.

Hello guys, how r u doing? First off I want to say thank you for all the comments on the last two posts, I have replied each individually as is my custom, never mind that its very late. Today is usually Music Monday, and I am sorry I wasn't able to deliver on that but it's only because we have a guest writer and due to lack of communication on my part, we will not have that till tomorrow….My BAD – so please come back tomorrow.

As you know, I had been writing a love story which like I said was partly inspired by my story and that of friends. -(yes partly cos even though its true HE and I decided to be friends, we haven't seen since we started talking and of course had sex) Here are the links to previous post, if u want to know where this is coming from. 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11

Hope you all had a splendid weekend, wishing you the best for the rest of the week. Excited for work tomorrow, cos I learn new stuff….plus I met a guy, heheheh nothing o, still stuck on HE naturally, but I think it's funny that he is the first person I have met in over 2yrs other than He that I have liked, enough to think o more than just friends – maybe its cos I liked HE, I never really looked at anyone else….

P.S – I have some blonde streaks in my hair hehehehehe

P.P.S – I Love You

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Waiting & Anyone

"I do not love u as if u were salt-rose, or topaz, or d arrow of carnations…I love u because I know no other way."~Neruda.


Waiting on spontaneous

Sorta like deciding to bungee jump

Waiting on new and different

Sorta like Google Wave

Waiting on mesmerizing and captivating

Sorta like a great movie or show

Waiting on understanding and attentive

Sorta like a parent with his/her child

Waiting on lasting and forever

Sorta like the love God has toward us

Waiting on gentle and kind

Sorta like what a deer represents

Waiting on peace and calm

Sorta like the gentle waves of the sea

Waiting on friendship and trust

Sorta like a dog and its owner

Waiting on passion and fire

Sorta like the wildfires across California

Waiting on

Well, waiting on You!!!!


Anyone with EYES could see the aura around me

    Bright shimmering display of LIGHTS

Reminiscent of a fully decorated Christmas display

Red, Yellow, Orange, COLORS

    COLORS that represent happiness, passion, ecstasy


    Anyone with a HEART could see mines

        Overflowing with JOY

    Repeated rhythmic contractions with all the

        Energy and excitement that comes with LOVE

    Anyone who has ever Loved could see that I was in love

        Completely, totally, UNASHAMEDLY

    I shined, SPLENDENT in it

        Deeply, Drunkenly, Obsessively


            ANYONE but you


I am over all the mushy feelings don't worry – I just write these kind of poems better than dark ones, even when my mood is dark, just can never seem to put it down on paper – how's ur week so far, and yes I am feeling better thanks for the love. Now imma try to go to bed, cos I have tp be up in like 3hrs or less. Take care and have a great day ahead

#Nowplaying – On Repeat all day and I'm sure all of tomorrow – " I Invented Sex Remix" Trey Songz ft Usher and Keri Hilson

P.S. I Love You

Monday, December 7, 2009

#MM: One Hit Wonders

Hello fellow bloggers, friends, family, colleagues and foes alike – welcome to today's edition of Music Monday – lol, I just cracked myself up – my opening line just reminded me of that debate show on tv in Nigeria – u remember – Speak Out (trying to remember the song)
So what's good folks? How was your weekend? This past week I have had many emotions flowing through me – I haven't wanted to post anything lest anyone see inside of me - and then starting Wednesday I started itching by Thursday 'it" was all over my body starting from my face to my toes – so bad I couldn't go to work on Friday – best friend is a nurse and she thought "it" was poison ivy so I was covered in calamine lotion and still on Benadryl, didn't even go to church on Sunday.

Speaking of best friends – how comfortable are you with your close guy friend, dating your close girl friend? And when I mean close I mean I alone know them better than anyone else in the world does, including their family members and even if they are not so close – does it place any pressure on you? I personally love it and I am ok with it – I personally think it's a match made in heaven, flaws and all included. But God forbid things don't work out, I wonder where I will be and if my allegiance will ever be questioned. So as not to find out, I am going down on my kneels to pray to God that it does indeed work-out. I wonder whose side I will be on at the wedding – lol (yes o, I have already planned it out for them). It says something about me though, cos I am not jealous, I don't feel like it takes anything from their individual relationship with me. And I find it funny when friends of either them complain or even if they don't say it out loud, act out cos they think I am somehow disturbing the relationship they have with them.

Speaking of relationship, I am single o – jeez, not like we ever said we were dating – but the realization dawned over the weekend that I can talk to other guys, give them my number, grind on a guy – owwwwwwweeeee its on – I'm excited, plus I like that I am working now, I feel even more independent hahah, I love my life – I see people doing all their lovey dovey "o I miss my baby, my baby is the best, I love waking up to my baby" and I am not even bothered no more – I feel like I longed for that so long – now I just want to relax and enjoy – for real – I could go the next year without no boy, might do me some good- but this no kissing business is becoming long sha, lol - like my mum said it will come to me (she apologized btw, she is so cool)

Now on to the Music - anyone excited about getting the Chris Brown CD tomorrow? I am – nways I am hoping you all haven't read the post on yahoo – put together a list of the one hit wonders of the decade and I must say wow, for real where did these folks go? – note that they defined one hit wonders as not having another song in the top 25 on any chart, so even if u heard them around, they never really did quite as well as the first time – and I am going to share some of my favorites from the list. Enjoy

This was actually #1 on the list – Gosh I loved this song, know every single word to it too – Daniel Powter - Bad Day

#4 on the list Is Mims - This is why I'm hot – and I reckon this was not so appropriate – it's safe to say 'this why you're not' Mims - lol

#12 on the list is Cassie – Me and U – I mean if you don't know and didn't love this song and the video gan – u must have been under the rock – really surprised she has never been top 25 with any song since, hmmm

#24 was by Vanessa Carlton – A thousand Miles – in my opinion she doesn't ever have to sing again – this song forever remains a classic and just genius

#25 was by Ruff Endz – No More – love love love this song – hahah it was too real jo

#29 was by Tweet – Ooops(Oh My) I really didn't think she was going to make it so I guess it makes sense – she is gay abi? And the song was about her touching herself abi? Lol

And that's it folks some of my favorites from the list, check the rest out on 

Should be frequent on the blog the next couple days, i think i have found a way to put my mumbled thoughts into coherent sentences - have a blessed rest of the week guys
P.s. I love You

Monday, November 30, 2009

#MusicMonday – His Name Is?

I will tell you his name in just a bit..hehhehe – what it do folks? Great Monday, I hope? Mine was chilled, the bus didn't even annoy me today, was listening to music and dancing (don't know why I keep doing that, I have no shame whatsoever) I almost missed my stop.

So for someone who claims to be private and really only share information with limited folks – I find myself able to tell you (blogsville) about anything and even knowing that people who know me personally (e.g. my dad, lol) read this doesn't deter me – there is just something about writing that frees me – it's probably why I don't hold on to anything and I'm able to let go so easily – nways my point for all this talk is I want to report my mummy to you

I love the woman to death, I do – but sometimes I swear I just want to give her a piece of my mind – so I tell her, HE and I are no longer talking, we going to try to be friends still – now I couldn't tell her the many reasons why this is true – I don't know how to lie to my parents, at least not any longer and she asked about him so I answered right? And she is going to say and I quote "hahah, why can't you hold on to relationships?" – oweeee, even now as I tell you, my blood is boiling over again – like my first thought was wtf? But I was raised right & the Holy Spirit spoke the words not me, in which I told her that it wasn't my fault and things happen and bye of course

It's a harsh thing to say and I'm still going to talk to her about it, but I understand where she is coming from – u see she has been divorced more years than she was married and with four kids, our happiness is what she lives for – and u know nja now, where my dad has remarried and has three other kids, she is single still – so that whole trying to make sure I have long lasting marriage clouds her judgment sumtimes in how she expects me to be with a boy and be tolerant and not want to end things so quickly or whatever

But this is where I stand – I believe in love, I really do – but I believe in love that is gentle and kind, peaceful, no stress, no insecurities, loads of trust, leave the baggage and the past experiences outside, have faith in us, understand that distance should not be a problem ever, be sensitive to my needs, know that sex enhances but is nothing to do with why I want to be with u, love that is good, strong and able to withstand anything – I will only settle for the kind of love that makes me deliriously happy and for a man that is a representation of my identity, someone who wants to scream my name to the world and will go leaps and bounds – so until then sorry mummy and daddy, marriage is the last thing on my mind – don't want to be where either of you are – I am single and celibate(not even a kiss, chai) and loving it – your baby is truly happy

His Name Is Joe
Sorry for the distraction today's post is actually about Music, goodness that is Joe– he is the only artist I believe has 8 awesome albums, this guy is largely underrated and is slept on– like each album was just perfect (ok let's say great) and imma share my fav songs from each – hope you like it and have a blessed week ahead – p.s I love you
From his First Album - Everything - "All or Nothing" - so old school men

From his 2nd album - All that I am - at this point its so hard to choose, this is my fav album still - but i have to go with "Good Girls"

From his 3rd album - My Name is Joe - my third fav album of his - this was just magic men - i have to go with "I Believe in you" over 'Table for Two and Stutter'

From his 4th album - Better Days  - my fourth fav album from his -this was just a really good clean album, it hit all the right notes - i have to go with "I Understand" but men "I like Sexy Girls" is such a classic

From his 5th album - And Then - omygoodness at this point i'm having orgasms - this album was just toooooooo great -  like this is the kind of album that makes me believe in perfect love (not the perfect man o) - second fav album of his - gotta to go with "And then" - but "More and More" is calling me

From his 6th album - Ain't nothing Like Me - hmmm this album take as it be - it wasnt his finest, he was trying to do some hiphop sturvs i wasnt feeling still - but out of it came one of his best songs ever "If I Was Your Man"

From his 7th album - Joe Thomas, New Man - This album i think was his most underrated album - cos it had some pure genius songs here and he went back to his pure r 'n' b/soul - my fav song still has to be "We Need to Roll" but please listen to "Why Just Be Friends"

From his 8th album - Signature - this is for the grown and sexy yo, like forget it - this album from top to bottom gets me gagas - gotta go with "Metaphor" but please listen to "Miss My Baby"

and thats it folks, orgasmic music at its finest - enjoy

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Daddy Found My Blog & I’m thankful

So yes u read me right – my dad found my blog – o my days I nearly shit for pant, when I got the text in the morning, telling me he found it and liked it except I shouldn't talk so much about my future, after which he proceeds to back it up with scriptural verses( which I haven't read still, please don't tell him, lol)- but as a big girl now, I handled it well – I just told him he is not allowed to read it ever again – knowing my dad, that's just story – the man is so funny, he likes that I can write about any topic and he goes "o my friend who is a writer said to send him some of what you have done, for a possible position" lol – he is cool people for real – I actually closed the blog for like a day, cos I didn't know what to do (did anyone notice?) but I realized knowing my dad, he already read all 50+ posts before sending the text, so nothing to hide – so he gets to read about everything I write if he so chooses from sex, to politics, to sports, relationships, anything personal or otherwise, even when it's about him. I love my dad, what can I say?

Btw, I am so sorry for not putting up a post since Monday, popsy found the blog on Tuesday I think, I closed it that day, and was going to post sumn once my holidays started on Thursday but just got really busy. Men, Houston can suck u dry o, every other day there is a wedding, baby shower, birthday something, I tell u I am going to sit my butt home by force or by fire this month of December coming, I already feel like I am known and u know ur girl don't do that – I like being behind the scenes – speaking of which one old man, I swear he is old enuff to be my dad was trying to chat me up yesterday (actually followed me to the bathroom), can u imagine? Then he is going to say can you hug me please? I'm like sorry sir but no – as in hey I wanted to die though, cos some old women and men were passing by greeting him & looking at me – more reason for me to sit my butt home in Dec. men…plus its cold in this zones men, really thought it will still be sunny until at least January – and tell me y, mosquitoes keep feasting on my body from my face to feet everywhere(bf mum says it's something about me being portable & having sweet blood) men ko funny jo

So I really hate to hear "Boyfriend is not husband" or vice versa – like for real what does that mean? Does that give me a right to go take another girls man, cos I think he is not the man for me? – I get the whole "don't put all your eggs in one basket bit" believe me I know(but that's story for another time) but I just think that's a selfish, and stupid thing to say or principle to live by – but what I like about life is that karma is a bitch, that goes hard – enuff said

So my Naija and Yankee folks, how was your long holiday? Hope you enjoyed it & all – mine was busy attending functions I had no business attending really – but I also volunteered, which was pretty cool, and hung out with my boy – Mr. Banko – from Canada, and with limlim, who came in from school in Indiana- so that was nice and some good good food (I will tell you that my tummy is swollen, although that seems to have been the case for about a month now, but u will probably tell me I have body image issues) – nways in the spirit of Thanksgiving, I have to share with you the reasons I am thankful – and I hope you really took the time to do that – I think Nigeria needs to create such a day, things might make a difference in that country as such – so here we go in no particular order

I'm Thankful

I'm so thankful for God, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit, I could not even tell you where my life will be otherwise & I pray you all know him personally, especially those of you that don't know him now

I'm thankful for the air I breathe, that I can walk, type, see even if it's with glasses, that I am just 5'2 and look 16 still, for a face that can let my do any hairstyle, for my swollen tummy even with all the workout and eating right

I'm thankful for the love of family, even through it all, he has kept us happy and healthy and keeps providing for us, for a job and for me being able to give of my very own first paycheck(pls remember always to give your tithe and your first fruit-which is the complete first paycheck)

I'm thankful for the best friends anyone could ever wish for – if it were a contest I can promise you that I would win hands down, cos I have ride & die friends – I would name names but no space – they know themselves, I try to tell them how much they mean to me frequently – but regardless I love you always

I'm thankful for blogsville – you could never know what you mean to me, your support, your feedback- Myne, Mr Jegede, Roc, Cerebrus, Tisha, Tricia, Bagucci, David, Sugarking, Fabulola, all the anonymous– ok, this won't work – I couldn't name you all, esp cos there are some of you who never comment but I know are steady reading – I'm so thankful to God for you

I'm thankful that I take the bus to work, that I always have food to eat, that I haven't collected my degree yet & was able to still work, that I am done with school, that I'm in Houston, that I can't go to Naija this xmas, for long natural nails and nice legs

I'm thankful for each of my siblings, they are the reason I strive to be the very best, and for the best mother in the world hands down, and my very funny daddy - that I am single still and not lonely, that I haven't done the do for almost a year now, that my "assets" have grown, that I can never find clothes for my weirdly shaped body

I'm thankful cos I have no reason to be in the hospital ever, and not had to see the dentist for a while, that Arsenal & Giants are my teams even though they occasionally suck, for my love of shoes, for the ability to tweet (allowing me to say some major random ish) and even more so for blackberry, for humor group and the Christian group on there

I'm thankful for my extended family, for past and present teachers & mentors, past & present churches and pastors, for everyone I have ever met, for Music (which I think he specially created because of me), for older friends and new friends who have taken to me and been very supportive & encouraging and helpful, for skype and the internet in general- and so many things I am sure I am forgetting

I am just so thankful & filled with joy & peace – my parents knew what there were doing when they named me with names that all have joy in it – cos I am truly blessed & happy and I sincerely wish you all the same – the kind of joy that removes all kinds of sorrow & tears

Nways with that said – wishing you all a very F-A-B-O-L-O-U-S week ahead, one without no stress and only testimonies – I will be doing a whole special on one particular artist tomorrow – so please come back – although I suspect it will be late- PEACE

p.s I Love you

Monday, November 23, 2009

Throwback #MusicMonday

Hello guys, how was your weekend? Forgive me for my ranting from Saturday jo, u know how we females do – I had that drink sha, I needed it – a big glass of margarita and then some white chocolate molten cake with the best friend and as soon as we got home, we went jogging cos we felt so guilty for having that much calories lol

So believe it or not I am not impressed with any new song over the past 3-4 days, none of the songs have caused me to so much as bump my head – speaking of which I think Neyo is beginning to sing too much and if all the songs are out are to be in his album I really think it will be a massive fail – even Usher won't do so well

Which gives me an idea, will anyone be interested in being a guest blogger and doing their own #MusicMonday – something new and different, different genre, different culture, whatever – please let me know via comments and then I'll figure out the next step

So since there is no major gist - other than the fact that Houston is cold and I'm a happy baby (my height is causing all these young boys to be looking at me like we are mates' o) can u imagine? My bestfriend is having fun at my expense, reminding me I look 16 – not like I should be complaining but at least 18 now heheheheheh – starting tomorrow I'm going to be jogging at 5am, just think I need the time to reflect, feel Gods awesomeness in the air & praise him, I have to wake up @5.30am nways so it's not so much of a stress – nways back to the music

Bossman was trying to do 25 albums of the century on his blog – lai lai ko possible, I don't like albums – they usually disappoint but even with the ones I'm a fan of – I can't pick top 25, ko possible – so I decided to give u some throwback songs for some of my favorite albums and I can tell you right now this shit was hard yo – like how do you pick one song from 15 classic songs on an album? – its retarded I tell ya, nways enjoy, tell me what you think, tell me what classic album I'm missing – be reminded that this is my opinion so it could be thoroughly misguided – but I hope u likes it

Usher -8701
Some might argue that Confessions is a better album than 8701 but I disagree vehemently, there are some songs on there I wasn't enamored with – but with 8701, o my days omydays – name the song, and I know it still, almost every word – that album was all kinds of genius and this right here is one of the best songs this album has to offer – albeit might not be as popular as some of the others

Brandy –Afrodosiac

I couldn't decide if Full Moon was better – like really how can on decide – Full Moon had-Full Moon-Come a lil closer, He is & WOW and Afrodisiac had –Afrodisiac, Focus, Saddidy & Come as you are

But after careful consideration you had to go with Afrodisiac it was just the better album when it comes to listening to the whole album without skipping, but Full Moon had the better singles I think – so you get one from each album

Dolly Parton – any album
Lol, yes I did – yes I did – Dolly Parton is the business and the Oyedele family grew up with this woman – we had mostly collections of her best songs – so really maybe not any album, but I presume you will never be disappointed with any of it, she has over 20 – but for real though songs like 9-5, Coats of many colors, Joshua, Just because I'm a woman, Jolene – o my good, I am currently giving her a standing ovation even as I write she was that great

Donnell Jones – Where I wanna be
Is there any of his album else worth mentioning? Ummmmmmmmmmmmmm hell no – this is some baby making album right here – to think I knew all these songs when I was 12 hehehehe, blame my parents- it's the only thing they have in common except us kids – do you remember this joint?

TLC – Crazysexycool
U know I had to go here, plus I really hate(k, dislike) Beyonce so I'm not about to do a destiny child album here and you will kill me if I do a Britney Spears album – so we going for the grown and sexy that this album was – I loved the edge and cool of this album men

Brian Mcknight – Back @ one – maybe not the best, cos I haven't listened to every single album, but definitely a great one – compelling songs that make you cry men –plus listen to played yourself yo(as in it was a masterpiece, would have picked this one, couldn't find a video anywhere) plus you I'm hoping you have all heard Good Enough (but if you haven't, click on it to listen to craftsmanship)

And last but definitely not least – Sisqo – Unleash the dragon – say whatever you want, this album was so freaking fantastica – as in hey it was fantabulous – lol – infact I need to buy it again

o what do you think, what say you? U like? still missing a lot(e.g Joe(big slap on my face for that one, i literally did it) rkelly and so much more - but no space-Have an awesome awesome week ahead guys

Saturday, November 21, 2009

All I want for xmas

So they have started the Christmas songs and movies and all I feel is major depression – I'm about to do something I ever and only rarely do which is curse

But truth is I fucking hate Christmas in this depressed country and it doesn't help that I was home last year, but this truly fucking sucks

Never mind that at home all I do is go to church and chill with my family and friends, but it's just me and my brother here and everywhere u go, u feel like a fucking third wheeler

I just hate it here, it's cold – which over here is supposed to be good for xmas and all people do Is shop and complain about the family they are going to see

Arrrrrrrggggghhhhh shit men

All I want is to be loved and be with the ones I love

We never shared gifts back home, I mean we got new clothes (I love new clothes) and my family isn't big on the immediate family shindigs, I guess no one had a big enuff house to host everyone but there is sumn about love, being with the ones you love, that love and being safe (lol, that seems ironic, cos most will say Naij isn't safe especially during the holidays) but u get my point

I agree with RocNaija – "women so complicated" (umm dude u still need to explain that from the last post o) – I think I'm about to be me on my period (lol, I know so gross)

But yea I'm depressed and right now I wish I drank – a long island iced tea would be damn skippy right now

So in the meantime I'm going to watch hallmark channel Christmas movies and try to focus on what xmas really is – which is the birth of my Lord and savior

The one who made me and gave me this job and so even if I can't go home now I know it's for a purpose – because I know he wants me to take my possession in this land of his

Which reminds me my dad wants me to start planning an Oprah takeover – he is so happy she is planning to end her career then cos he thinks by then I'll be ready to show the world, this charm and personality he thinks I have that is great enough for tv – Oprah kind status tv – lol and don't you dare agree o blogsville, don't you dare agree and put ideas in my head, I'm still trying to write a book and let me tell you that's not going so well – so no don't you dare say this is a good thing

Again have I told u how much I love u lately – I can't believe you loved the poem – really did you love the poem tho? Or just supporting your girl? Nways sha I love you still, and so that means if I'm in a good mood I could write better and you will love it – lol, yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy lol, I am a 23 yr old child

Nways hope you all having a great weekend – please be safe and o try to volunteer this thanksgiving and not just stuff food in your mouth – and take time to really thank God for all his beautiful blessings including your beautiful faces…

Gist – my one ex calls after 2 years (p.s. he reads the blog, lol) and the one ex said I inspired his new company – I feel awesome, lol – just to say no matter how much I was hurt at the time, as long I composed myself well, I can hold my head high and that's good enuff for me

Take care guys…

U rock my socks

p.s. I love you

Wednesday, November 18, 2009


Hello ladies and gentlemen – how y'all doing? I hope ur week has been splendid – mine has been, I give God all the glory – I really wish I prayed a lot more, but I do believe God knows my heart and sees how much I love him – plus I try to say it a lot – nways that's beside the point

In an effort not to put so much of my feelings out there or my thoughts on the love issue – I unwittingly confused you – please accept my apologies and let me clarify the situation

There are no two guys – it's just one guy – for those of u who started the blog with me you will know him as HE – we have been "talking" since feb I think and I strongly like him and therein lies the problem

He is in London and I'm in the States – so this feeling of affection for sumone I haven't kissed seems rather a lot – I mentioned blogger to ask what we as women are looking for e.g. would blogger be" promises of a future untold because he hasn't shown me anything now of how he would treat me and take care of me"– long distance is just hard for him – whereas with HE, could it just all be" a dream, are we still in the honeymoon phase? Can guys really do long distance?" I'm not trying to get married to him or anything – but it sure will be nice to let d world know I have a man – ha whatever, I'm rambling – may the pseudo poem will help


Say you won't break my heart

It's been held together by glue right now

Pray tell are u my missing my puzzle?

Is this another game for you?

How long till I take her to bed?

Calls, texts, msgs expenses charged to ur player account?

When u said u love me, did u really mean it?

Say you won't lie to me?

Say you will be faithful?

Can you be faithful?

Everybody says it's impossible

What say you?

Say I can trust you

And you trust me

Say you will be there

To the very end

And not give up

Say I can release my heart

Say you will cherish it so

Say you will love me with all that you have

And if it were to end

Say you will be gentle

And leave my heart the way you found it

Albeit with more glue, waiting on my missing puzzle


Monday, November 16, 2009

#MusicMonday Ramblings

Hello peoples, how you doing, how was your weekend o? mine wasn't bad at all- Yoruba Nigeria weddings are the shiznit men especially with the Live band and you can't help but dance – plus ur sweetheart was looking fly if I say so myself – lol, my vain self has been kicking extra hard lately – I really need to calm down- lol.

So work has been awesome, the thing is Epidemiologists are glorified "paper pushers" cos most of what we do is track diseases, get the reports from the hospitals, investigate it and then file it – our work is only shown when we publish reports, like all that info you get on smoking and cancer rates for example – but for the amount of money they paying me, I am a happy "paper pusher" lol – all Glory to God

So I'm taking the bus & train in the meantime, cos my car is still in Michigan and the sightings are just the best – first off I work in the medical district – so enuff nurses, doctors and all the other health professions and then at some point u start seeing regular and "weird" people – like this white guy(note that I said guy aka man) in a purple skirt suit and I wasn't sure if it was a painting/ tattoos/ tights – I just know it was on his legs and it was rainbow colored – I so badly wanted to take a picture men- it was a sight for sore eyes –speaking of which I seen this girl(black)at the salon with colorful tattoos – she had kisses in red men- all across her neck and chest – pretty as hell too, and I don't mean to be judgmental but what future does she expect to have – I'm just saying

So about that strong like/love thing – my question when do you know? What are the signs? – let me lay down the scenario – two different guys, both thousands of miles away (one a fellow blogger of ours, hi dear) – both claim to be interested they have mentioned the word love – blogger: doesn't remember my birthday, hardly picks up the phone to call me, especially when he is busy- he retreats into his shell , but keeps tabs on me– but I know he cares, more like once we are together then he will do all the work involved in keeping me – other guy: must talk to me every day, is friends with my best friend now, calls me every hour before it was my bday, makes me laugh silly and likes to be involved in details about me from my hair to my career

I know that doesn't give you much info, and don't get me wrong, they are not in competition or am I talking to both of them – I'm just trying to assess my feelings - do you see where I am coming from?– what do we use to judge a man – other guy: could say be doing this only till we have sex or sumn – he just has to conquer yea, whereas say for example blogger would love me forever – nways I guess if u can help me rationalise this out cos I'm not sure I want to give my heart to anyone completely anytime soon or ever really

Speaking of which some boys take the piss men – this guy invites my friend out to the movies, then goes "can u come pick me up" she said no, that her car was indisposed and he goes "well, can sum1 drop you off, we can stay in and watch a movie" to which she said no and goes on to say they could do it some other time when he has his car, to which he said and I quote "forget it" – I am so freaking confused, what does that mean – was he hoping to get her to his place to do the 'do' or does he not have a car to which I say, why didn't u just say so in the first place and or invite me out – like boy r u crazy

Nways sorry guys this is getting rather long – got four albums this weekend, courtesy my boy "extreme baby" lol – Wale's, Ryan Leslie's, Melanie Fiona's and Owl city's and imma share one of my favorites from each– without writing anything about these songs, I hope you can hear what the lyrics are trying to say and you get the message, cos they are rather deep songs – plus a Robin Thicke song I hope you have all heard by now and a Chris Brown(can't wait for his album) song I hope u all enjoy

Looking forward to your comments and all the best throughout the rest of the week – I love u all
P.s. Happy bday Okpe - much love

Thursday, November 12, 2009

My testimony

awwwww thank u guys so very much for the feedback, I feel really loved - I appreciate you all so very much
so the reason why I asked you all to pick a name for me was that i had gotten some news about a job and I wanted to know what name to use if it went through - well it did, without a hitch - your baby is now a city employee - epidemiologist tohhhh baddd - isn't God so awesome

I was ready to give up, so many times I wanted to give up - I had mentally packed my bags to Nigeria yo - shu I planned my marriage in my head gan, cos it seemed like the next plausible thing to do - it didn't seem like I was going to get a fantastic job in Naij nways but I kept holding on and praying and believing in the Almighty - you all kept encouraging me and supporting me and praying for me - u never let me feel depressed or sorry for myself - after all there are tons of people like me that were looking for jobs - my best friend kept me strong and was my rock, she will get paid and say "we got paid" - taking me out to eat, to do my hair, do my nails - so I wouldn't be down - Miss Bijoux took me to church every Sunday, where Gods word kept feeding my soul I won't go on –

I just want you to know that God is great and he loves us and sees our heart desires once you make sure what you want is according to his will, then things will be easy for you - like you won't believe - they called me for this job on Tuesday and I started today, just like that – like magic- and because the winner was Nifemi - I introduced myself as Nife - lol, you should hear oyinbos say that………..I didn't even tell you how, I had been called for another job just like that, I was so excited but it wasn't even in my field but I was ready to do anything at the time but they couldn't ever offer me the position because I am international student – and like this one it came out of nowhere unexpectedly – that's how great my God is

So I have a new journey to go on with you guys – I already have stories to tell and this weekend imma lay it all on you – Houston is a trip, lol – so thank you guys for everything, God Bless you and he will favor u and yours in Jesus name – just trust in him – I am off to bed yo, at 10.43pm – lol, the story of my life – but I have to be up by 5.30am so don't blame me

Love y'all

Nife the Epidemiologist

p.s. I'm in love – ok that seems too much – I am in very strong like

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Names: Very Important

Hey guys, this is just a quick post cos I need your help....but wait peoples you didn't show my peoples love on the previous post - I know we all busy put pls pls let these folks know you support their work and its not in vain what they do alright..thanks, I trust u guys

Nways u all know I've been with the best friend for a minute & I have decided I need to know what name I want to go by - The options are Nife Buki Ayo Moyo - I am leaning more towards Moyo - cos I have used all the previous ones in my many different locations. I know this sounds very crazy but its very important in building my persona in this state

So what say you guys - do I look like a Moyo or should I just stick to Nife which has been the name used the past yr- I need your answers by the end of today guys - cos tomorrow begins a new journey - imma gist u all about in a bit - Thanks and God Bless

Monday, November 9, 2009

#Music Monday – Introducing Sonya “La-La” Irabor & ND

Its Monday peoples – hallelujah, hallelujah - we see another week… all Glory be to God

Lol, don't mind me – I am just excited – had a good weekend – highlight I saw Drake (note, I didn't say I met Drake) I just saw Mr "Best I ever had" – and he is much cuter than I thought – how was your weekend? Anything interesting happen at your neck of the woods – please share?

Thank you all so much for taking the time to listen to my girl, Miss Josephine Silla, im glad u liked the song – thank u so much for commenting as well I appreciate you all very much

I was to give you the goodness that is Michael Jackson today – but I have decided to give you the goodness that is from Nigeria – especially for those of us in the states who miss out on some really talented artists – from our great Nation – and I hope you like these artists as much as I do

Sonya "La-La" Irabor

I have never met this lady but I feel like I know her already – my boss Mr WePlugGoodMusic aka Ayohla, introduced me to her a while back and is a diehard fan and I see why after listening to some of her songs – my favorite so far being Mr Swagger – which you will get to hear in a bit. She's an ever growing Singer/Song-writer based in Leicester, UK and there is something about her sound – something she describes as Jazz/Funk/Soul with a hint of pop that I find so endearing…..i love her voice, she can do whatever (slow it down like Alicia keys or tear it up like Lauryn Hill) and it will be a hit ….. And someone who can sing like this at age 19/20 has only the best things heading her way – with great management, production and team – she could be one of the best we see from Naija …..I propose to be your video director La-La , lol

Here are three of her songs for your listening pleasure
My fav - Mr Swagger

01 MR. SWAGGER.mp3

Awesome Song - No One Like You

02 No One Like You...

Just Goodness - Get Over it

01 Get Over It (In...
You see what I'm talking about guys is she good or what? – She's looking to release her E.P which will be for free downloading in Dec 09/Jan 010 with these three tracks forming part of the EP – and I'm excited to hear it – it should be awesome

For more information on her visit her on her twitter page, facebook page and she has a radio show she does every Sunday @ 7pm, Uk time – so guys lets support and promote and encourage her


Now him – I know nothing about, where he is from, where he is – absolutely nothing – I was randomly on, when I heard his song and I went ahead to download his free mixtape and I was thoroughly impressed – I think Banky W has something to be anxious about – cos this guy whoever he is ( I have tried asking people about him, no one seems to know him) is a great singer to be – I love love his voice -
 here are four of his songs for your listening pleasure
My Fav - May I

2. ND and Meaku - ...

Awesomeness - Back to You

Great Song - Scandal

9. ND -

Just had to throw in the Yoruba song - Bamidele

4. TNT ft. ND - Ba...
there is the link to download the mixtape ....Iet me know what you think and if you know the rock he is hidden under please remove and find him and tell him his biggest fan is looking for him
There we go guys – let's hear your opinions and have a fantabolous week ahead …..Kisses all around