Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Fantasy Turned Realites

No, we didn't "do it" that night......of course not.....I am a Nigerian girl for God's sake we dont give it up that easily.....at least I dont......We didn't do it the next night either......

To be totally honest with you, by the third night I was slightly worried........the chemistry was there.......we made out all the time.....he was undoubtedly the best kisser I had ever had.....and his hands were divine.......it was like we had met in a different life and he had memorized my body then......it didn't take long for him to find every spot on my body......

Like at the back of my neck, where he knew to blow on, creating all kind of sensations in me.......
Like whispering into and kissing my ears, creating butterflies in my tummy..............
Knowing how to feel my boobs.......do you know how many guys do a horrible job at that?
He knew just the right way to cop it.......just the right way to kiss it.......without feeling like he was kneading dough....
The softest touch on my face, he felt my body from my head to my toes........he adored my body the way I adored a pair of shoes.....or like a guy loved his automobile(a benz, bmw, ferrarri).....u know what I mean? It seems like a weird comparison, albeit degrading comparison.....but if you understood how much I love shoes, you would know that he was loving my body right.....He made me feel desired

Yet, by the third day he hadn't gone out of his way to have sex with me......I didn't get it......He knew I was afraid, a bit timid, and I understood him caring enough not to rush me, but I had only seven days left....And so I complained to my best friend......Scorpio like myself, she was the exact opposite of me.......she liked sex, and had more sex than I had even after the fact that she started later than I did......, and she told me what I knew all along, I was going to have to make the first move................It was time to turn my fantasy into reality


I wish I could tell you, that we didn't have sex that night......part of me is still shy, you know.......
But we did.......we had sex a lot for the next seven days, right down to the hour before I left for the airport..........I will be lying if I say it wasn't the best I ever had......of course I had very little to compare it with.......The shower scenes were the best....It seemed unimaginable at the time, but it was not so difficult.......we had phenomenal sex, we were right for each other, our bodies once again confirmed this

It was more than just sex...........it was the intimacy involved...........we talked more, we laughed more, we thoroughly enjoyed each other's company.....the three days prior seemed boring compared to the next few days.........you know how you see the couple kissing on the street, with that knowing look or smile? that was us the next seven days, when we went shopping, when we went out to dinner, at the club, at the musuem, at the park............we were the disgusting honeymooners..........

And everyday that week, I waited for the shoe to drop.....This was turning out to be a little bit too much like a movie, or a storybook.......and in these movies, someone always died and/or got their heartbroken.............so I resolved to have the best time of my life and cherish every moment...
Patiently waiting for my perfect(imagine Jimmy Choo's) shoes to drop...
It didn't drop that week, but It was bound to happen....I was sure and when that day came, I was sure it was to be the most painful experience yet............So till then........................

To be continued........xxxxxx

Sunday, August 23, 2009

I Digress

Before you kill me.....I will continue "Our Journey" soon......as most of you already guessed the story is only part fiction and the rest personal.....trying to find the perfect balance, has been relatively easy, but I need to be careful so as to keep you entertained and interested and not put all my business out there......plus you guys are harsh critiques men, e.g. the last post, no comments because you guys didn't get the same interest as before...you guys are hard to write for i tell you.....I love how people don't even leave comments but come back on facebook and send me a message or write on my wall.....still thanks for all the love, I APPRECIATE IT.

Update.....no word back from the job yet....not worried, but sitting down at home when you don't have money royally sucks.....if I had money, wouldn't have cared and probably would have gone on a break....so pray for me guys, I really need to start working asap.....

Irritations......another story of a friend who was in a relationship for four years, found out that her boyfriend was dating sum1 else for 2yrs and was planning to get married to that one.....I don't know about you, but it makes me just want to hate guys.....i find it rather disturbing that sum1 will intentionally hurt another person like that.......its sad...and reminds why i'm skeptical abt guys.....
taking my hair out, will never do quick weave again........lol
The excess use of Nigeria in American movies and t.v. shows......its becoming annoying especially since its not done right and most of the information is inaccurate...I say Nigerians need to go to the actors/directors guild and tell them that if they must use our country's name they better speak well of it and use correct information......i doubt anyone will join me, but I think its time Nigerians stand up for themselves......that's why Americans think they own us or know more than us, when truth is, any one of us will school an average American on any topic in the world, except abt their country......

Joys.....its been fun since graduation....had folks till the friday after,refreshed my memory on how to make amala and meatpie, some swimming, played tennis, played nintendo wii till my hands were sore.....learning french......went on my first boat ride with the undergrad crew(my oyinbo family except one)......a lot of dinners (surprise bday, going away party, undergrad crew hangout).....indoor hot tub.....

Third time is the charm..........finally got my scotch egg done right,.....the past two tries were woeful and i'm excited......made some ayamase today(great sturvs, fantastic with white rice).....baked some cake(really love doing that)

Watched....Julie&Julia.....I have decided that I am going to start my own cooking project once i start making money, try a different recipe 365days a year.......I recommend this movie..........
Also...The Time Traveler's Wife.....very weird and too out of this world to envison, but very good......I also recommend.........G.I Joe.........very good, Love me some Channing Tatum....go see it

HE.......and I have been stagnant.....woes of long distance relationship, no luxury of honeymoon phase.....how does one revive it and keep it going without seeing each other? will appreciate some help on this one

Finally.......went back to my first love.....Music.....its effect is magical.....I love poetry, I love cooking, I love reading, I love artwork, I love photography, I love dancing, I love writing.....yep i'm diverse like that.....but Music is on another deep level....and I had neglected it for a while, enjoying all my other loves......so i'm back to my roots.........fabolous and joe's album are a must get....



hope you all have been good???...please leave a comment....I want to personally thank you......stay tuned for the next episode in "Our Journey"....stay blessed and have a great week...xxxx ciao

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Tickles

On our way home and he wouldn't talk to me.....he wouldn't even look at me......
I didn't get why he was so mad, nothing happened......so, his bestfriend and I fought????.....we had been friends way longer than they were friends, and he knew we were going to see sometime or the other.....

When he had seen us, I had wanted to lie.....it was a very fast reaction to do so....not that I was a liar by nature, but I didn't want to hurt him and I didn't know if the truth was a sufficient enough answer........the truth was obvious innit? we were fighting.....Why???, was the million dollar question......It seemed our love (bestfriend and I) ran deep for each other.....it wasn't sexual, but it was enough to make him feel threatened by my involvement with his friend, thus making me defensive and territiorial for the man I had fallen in love with.......

I'll be damned if I had to prove to him that there was nothing for him to be afraid of.......
It had taken me good 6months to show him that I wasn't playing games......I remember celebrating every new month of the relationship then, because it was always such a big deal that we didn't end it........trust was his main issue and I couldnt believe that afterall this time, he would think I would ever betray him........

So I remained silent........not a word..........as we sat side by side on the train....................

"Do you have something to say, or is this how its going to be the whole night? I asked"...........
"what do you want me to say, its only your first night and right after I kiss you, you are standing with someone else, looking like you were about to kiss him?"
"O please.....you know its not like that, never will......we were fighting, we are friends, it wasn't a big deal......when are you going to get it, that not every girl wants to cheat and that its especially not going to be your bestfriend even if I wanted to"
"I don't know, what I saw was a lot.....you guys seem like you are really into each other"
"And what? we suddenly figure this out when I meet you, and never felt anything before, goodnight I'm going to bed" I said
"Goodnight"

Changed and in bed, 10 mins later he walks in.......shifting to my side of the bed, he slides in...and I proceed to pretend that I am asleep........I did not acknowledge his presence.....till i felt him curve his body to mine and draw me to him.........and then he tickles me......omygosh!!!! "please stop".........Not releasing me he continues to tickle me, while I am tearing up in laughter promising to do whatever he wants, trying to find ways for him to release me......and when he finally does, he is on top of me.......

Brushing my hair from his face, he looks at me....."I am sorry"......simple, effective and sincere.... and then he kisses me.......first my mouth, then my forehead, my nose, my cheeks, my eyes, my ears and my neck.....right back to my mouth.................and boy was I eager to kiss back.......


to be continued......................xxxxxxxxxxxx

Thursday, August 20, 2009

In his Eyes

He Kissed me.....right there infront of everyone........and my first reaction was to slap him.....my mind thinking how dare he??

But then I started to feel.......it wasn't like the kiss in my dream, it was better......and for what felt like five minutes.....our lips told stories of passion to be, yet explored.....I had made the right choice in a man......we would be happy for life, if we continued to kiss like this.......sigh!!!! as I released him.......I had to come up for air, I was breathless............His Eyes said it all...no mistake about it, this was real.......

and without saying a word I walked away.........

In the bathroom.....I wasn't sure if I was to cry for pleasure or be terrified of what was to come......I knew why he kissed me in public.....at least I think I did......it was so there was no pressure when we got home......if it was bad, then at least we knew now, and would figure out how to avoid any sexual committments throughout my stay........but it was great, confirming infact that there was sexual chemistry.......looking into the mirror, lips swollen, face flushed.....and I felt alive, beautiful and wanted..........I was excited to explore this phase in our journey.......

Then I remembered that I didn't know how.....what did I know about sex???? this is me, would not have sex conversations with no one, not even my best friend..........for a scorpio I am a sexual recluse.....I just never seen the big deal..........and it didn't help that I hadn't even had any in a year.......I was sure I was "revirginized", if there is a word like that.......is there a word like that??? .......as a girl, I was attempted rape on 3times, thankfully neither of them were fruitful......and I just closed up......I didn't want no guy touching me.....and so my first time, was horrible to say the least......It was more painful than enjoyable.....so what would I know about pleasing my man???.....I was sure that after the sex, things would go downhill, he would be so disappointed....arrrrggghh

Resolving in my mind, that I was going to find a way to avoid having sex with him for the next 9days, I left the bathroom, after redoing my lips, making sure I come out looking like this wasn't new to me, u know????? How, I was going to avoid him, i didn't know.....I couldn't exactly use my period......we had planned for me to come after my period......and I was still thinking about that, when his bestfriend grabs me and drags me to the corner................

"so you came to visit him??"......he asked......."Yes, I did, and if you were talking to me for the last few months I would have told you myself"......You see we had been friends, longer than they had been friends.....we grew up together, and I was his first crush........but we just never dated, initially cos I wasn't interested in boys, and then we just kept drawing father apart.....he really got into being this "big, famous" guy........he would change phones every month, couldnt be caught dead in anything that wasn't designer labelled, always showing off......and I was and still am the opposite of that, and he grew worse as he got older......it didn't help that he was a very jealous person......but he messed up when he thought he had the power to control if I dated his friend, and got so mad that I didn't let go and deleted me of his blackberry messenger, and wouldnt say a word to me on facebook..........

We were still arguing, in each others face........so close, it looked like we were about to kiss..........
When He comes along, "whats going on here?"...........

His eyes telling a different story this time........one of hurt and anger

to be continued.........xxxxx

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

For a moment like this

Eyes still locked on each other, he deepened the kiss ever so slightly, enough for me to taste the tangy smell of his cigarettes and leave me wanting for more......

Withdrawing he said " Go back to bed, I'll wake you up in two hours to get ready".....
Walking out, he shut the light outs and I snuggled in to the covers and let out a long sigh.....
The boy was evil......all that kiss did was leave me breathless and desperate for more.....
And my dream was filled with hot, mindless, passionate kisses.......
I woke up hungrier for that kiss......Jeez, I hadn't been kissed in a year, so I wasn't to be blamed......this was more than just a physical need......it would be the beginning of what already was...........Tonight for sure......I couldn't wait and to tell the truth, the anticipation was unbearable in my mind......This is the one time, I wished I was bold enough, to go grab him and just get the kiss over with......but alas, I was shy.....I for no reason, under any circumstance......went after a man, regardless that he was my man.....

Standing up, I got dressed......It seemed I could only sleep one hour.......the kiss had haunted my dreams so much, I couldn't sleep.....
I found him in the kitchen cooking.........don't you just love a man that knows his way around the kitchen.......the Pasta was boiling and the chicken sauce was frying.....it smelt really good....and we just sat chatting, till the food got ready........we decided we will eat when we got back, I didn't want to look bloated at the party.....

Thankfully I knew about the party a week prior, so I was prepared.....You didn't just dress anyhow in London.....girls were mean with that shit....u would think each party was a fashion show.....it was even funnier cos, you see the same girls at the party on fri, sat and sun....every weekend....each outfit better than the last.....shu, and the boys were even worse in my opinion....whereas, you live in yankee long enough, you are not shocked the day you decide to wear slippers to a club......I had decided on a dress, we were taking the train, cos it made more sense....and even though I knew I would be cold getting there, I knew the club would be packed and hot...some of my friends were meeting me there and I knew all of his friends will be there....

I come out of the room, and he is dressed.......we were matching, black dress for me, black shirt and pants for him.....a coincidence.......but it was rather pleasant....it said a lot in my mind.......
We get there, and before i knew it we were separated.......saying hi to people I hadn't seen in forever......and for a while, I didn't miss his absence.......besides I really didn't want to hang with all his boys.......things had been a little awkward in the beginning with his best friend, who i was always close to and wasn't really happy with our relationship....so I stayed clear.......

By the time, he came around to looking for me.....I was mad, boy was I furious.....who did he think he was leaving me alone like that? i didn't say anything, but i made it very obvious........he introduced me to his friends, and went to go get me a drink......when he came back, he asked me to dance.....I was about to say no, but I didn't think it was appropriate to do so infront of his friends.......

"Why are you mad now, you were with your friends? he asked"....."yeah but regardless I came with you, its kinda annoying"......"Ok I'm sorry, lets just dance".....And dance we did, for the next hour straight.....fast, slow, we moved to the beat like we were one.......

I was about to move away.........my body couldn't take it anymore, i was tired.....but neither could my mind.....It was wandering dangerously....I was tempted in more ways, than I could think of.....and he grabbed me back, and right there in the middle of the dance floor....thousands of people around us.....

He kissed me......


to be continued xxxxx

Sunday, August 16, 2009

While She Slept

He showed her around his place......It was new, so there wasn't much to show, but he knew it was a great idea to have gotten his place, rather than have her stay with all his boys.....she was shy for sumone who talked a lot and and new a lot of people......Then she went into the room, to go shower.....

As he heard, the water running....he decided this was a good chance as any to get in his last smoke, at least for the next 2weeks.....He really liked her, cos he couldn't believe he was going to attempt to not smoke for as long as she was here, she really hated it and was always telling him all the health reasons why he shouldn't be smoking......he called her a nag once she started, but he knew it was cos she cared.....

By the time, he got back in.....he didn't hear the shower running.....so he knocked on the door to the room.....they were going to go have dinner, at his favorite restaurant, before he took her to this party his friend was throwing.....he couldn't get out of the party, but he also liked that he could show her off and introduce her to his friends......plus he knew it would definitely lighten the mood and elevate the tension that had been around since he picked her up, a tension so thick, he could practically cut it with a sword......she liked to dance and loved music, it should be fun

No answer, he knocked again......as he peeked in, there she was on the bed.....she had slept in her towel too.......she must have been really beat......as he pulled the covers over her, and sat beside her.....he thought to himself, that he was a lucky man......she wasn't perfect, but she was damn well great.....it was 6months ago, he asked her out and even then he wasn't entirely sure what he was doing......who started a relationship with someone you met physically only once prior and lived a thousand miles away????......

She is the one, he thought......not like he was ready to give her a ring anytime soon, he knew it would take him some time to get there......and it was just his luck that he had found the only girl in the world, who had no time line for marriage......yet, he knew he didn't want to ruin this.....he found it amazing that she had been faithful to him.....girls of today he thought were rather loose....and he had equally been faithful.....he knew she didn't believe it, neither did his boys.....for some reason he couldn't explain, he couldn't hurt her that way......

He wasn't sure that they would work out, he wasn't sure that after they had sex, things wont change.....the interest could have only been in the chase.....He was becoming a loser, he thought....one of those mushy boys......he definitely needed a beer..... He then bent over, to give her a kiss on the lips..........

I felt it, it was one of those soft feathery kisses you read about in novels......
I opened my eyes......it was real.....and not a dream........
Eyes locked on each other, his lips still on mine.........no one moved.......

to be continued......xxxxxx

Friday, August 14, 2009

The Long Ride Home

It didn't help that it was freezing.......I was Coooold, It was an utterly terrible Idea to have come here in the dead of winter.....The December wind was biting, never mind that he had turned up the heat as far as it could go.....

We were silent for so long.......I just couldn't speak.......I guess we were waiting for each other to make the first move...And I tried, my mouth was moving, but the words just wouldn't come out.....what exactly my mouth was saying I couldn't entirely tell you.......And just as I thought, I couldn't even breathe anymore, He says.....

"Goat head, why aren't you saying anything? R u shy?" I burst out laughing.....It wasn't even the cute kind of laugh, we ladies try to do.......But it did do the job of bringing down the temperature, the tension quickly evaporated and conversation flowed easily........I accused him of his smoking habits and he accused me of being a NAG......

Then he turned up the volume of the radio, his favorite song was playing.....And he took my hand
♫ Girl, I can't live without you ooooo, Girl I can't live without you o o.....Tinchy Stryder.....Never even heard of him, till I met him.....But I loved that he loved music almost as much as I do.....although there is still some argument on my part about this grime music still......

"How long do we have left, I asked? We are almost there, he replied." My tension rose as fast as he was driving, which was very fast, which I kept complaining about, and he kept saying to relax....You see for a year, we had been talking from across the seven seas literally.....but now I couldn't escape the physical aspect of this relationship......I afterall hadn't even been kissed in close to a year......I didn't even know, if I wanted to be kissed really......I didn't even think I remembered how....

If I say so myself, I looked hot.....I had afterall worked for months on end to look this good, the gym sessions have been more obsessions than just trying to stay fit....I had spent a lot of money on my hair too, which I never do, nails done right....I even fixed my eyelashes, which was quite bothersome really.....and yet I felt so insecure of myself......and my degree in psychology was of no help to me today......


All of this going through my mind, and I didn't even realize, he had parked......"Goat head, get out now".......Snap, Snap, Snap....The walk to the door was very very slow......


To be continued.....xxxxx

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

MPH Events and Things

awwwwwwwwwwww guys I graduated, it finally took me until the day of to get excited u know.....I am so lame....but it was all to the Glory of God......It was surprisingly uneventful.....I have this theory that when I invite folks for sumn, its only the folks that come that were meant to come.......even though my parents and other important people in my life couldnt make it, I just personally think there is a right combination of people, u need to make an event so its not one of those Nigerian things when they start to smash bottles and someone is arguing.....(lol).....its just a personal theory....my brain is screwed like that.....


Speaking of theories......As i'm sitting down writing this, I am watching Sex and the City.....and forget all the steamy sex scenes(just realized there was a lot of those) but I dont think I could ever have gotten back with BIG(whoever he represents in my life) big wedding, small wedding, court wedding, white wedding, vegas wedding......Your ass better know that you want to marry me the night before, the day on and want to be with me for the rest of our lives, have babies with me, and build a future together.....boy don't play.......my ass made a committment to you to do the same, whats got you thinking that you shouldnt be appreciative of the very fact......lol, see me going off

which reminds me, I think HE lied to me.....and i am not sure how I will react if thats true......i dont take kindly to lies, by omission, on purpose, watever.....it grates on my very nerve....we will see, ill let you know when I know wassup for real......

Now starts the craft of being a woman, worker, decision maker and caretaker for my siblings....my preparation for being a wife and a mother I say......it will be an interesting journey if my life so far has been any indication.....nothing is simple with me but the Victory is always sweet.....God has been faithful and he that has started this new thing is faithful and just to complete


P.S.......so most folks didnt like my choice of dress or hairstyle for my graduation.....I am slightly hurt, but their opinion matters why?lol......I thought I looked smashing.....nways, I am not sure how many folks read this who are not on my facebook, I love the anonymity of blog, but if you wanted to see a picture or two(one where my face is hidden of course) please let me know so i can put it on here

Thank you all so much for the Love and Support, I have been catching up on sleep so far, and then imma start job hunting, especially for Naij, while I still wait for my call from Indiana(wish me luck). Hope you are good guys, and had a great weekend and week so far?

Speak soon......xxxxx

Our Journey

Ours is entirely very simple, no spoken promises of tomorrow......although there is that hint of it in our every expression and conversation
You see ours is just an ordinary love......boy meets girl......boy chases girl.....girl falls in love....boy does too
It just so happens that we have never met.......fantasy always overshadows reality in this case
Imagination runs wild about the first encounter.......
I get off the airport and run straight to the bathroom.......he can't see me like this, hell freak no......
After almost 24hrs on a plane.....I look like hell, need to go brush my teeth and freshen up, maybe even change my top.....he calls my phone....that's good, I guess it means he is here......
One last look at the mirror....ok I don't look so bad, but my hands are shaking and I am nervous as hell.....jeez.......I have waited so long and yet it feels as wrong as it feels right.....maybe we shouldn't have ever met, this could ruin everything.....emotions running wild, I am literally about to faint....

I step out and there he was........he looked better than the pictures and all our many moments on webcam.....His back was now turned to me, smoking on a cigarette, like he always did.....He knew I hated that thing, watch him try to hide it once I call out his name......
Just as I predicted he jumped and crushed it under his foot as I called out his name....a half sheepish smile on his face....
We walked ever so slowly the distance to meet each other....It was the longest walk of my life, and yet the shortest distance ever....I wasn't sure if i was to hug him, or I was to wait for him to make the first move.......
He took my bag from me, how was your flight, he asked? It was uneventful thanks......U look good, he said......thanks babe, you don't look so bad yourself, I replied......
At this point we had gotten to the car, he puts my bag into the trunk....and comes around to open the door for me.....and as I sit down, I turn around to close the door......
He plants a kiss on my forehead, smiles and closes the door.......

My nerves calm down, my tension increases.......He was glad to see me and so was I......


To be continued................xxxxx

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Emotions

Single-handedly the one thing you have absolutely no control over......Emotions
The reason why I am writing this instead of doing what I need to do......
The reason I keep praying that the facebook message or the bb msg is from you......
The reason why someone asks me how you are, and I tell them I don't know, I don't care....when really all i can think of is that you haven't buzzed me all day......
The reason why we fight often, cos somehow you evoke all the wrong ones, yet......when I see you, I am always smiling......your face evokes all the right ones......
The reason why I want to beg you to stay down and lets work at this........
The reason why I constantly say, "Its your loss, I'm worth it, beautiful, educated and loving, whats there not to love".....
The reason why I am going to stop writing this, cos Emotions did never get you anywhere...

IT'S OVER

And just like that 275hrs of Unpaid Internship is over(lol, maybe I should change the name of the blog now).......omygosh, omygosh, omygosh......I don't know about you guys but this has been a great experience in retrospect....I know i bitched and whined through it all, and today(lol, yesterday I should say) could not have come any quicker......but I was leaving today and I had tears in my eyes....I am seriously going to miss that place, so much so I left my lunch bag there and had to go get it later..... now my supervisor still has to do an evaluation on me and I just hope its great......I did do all my work and more, but me and my phone were inseparable(not like I see that changing ever) so i'm thinking I might get docked points for that.


O and to add to my joy classes ended today as well(Mon, I mean).....and not only did it end we finished class by 6pm instead of 10pm, now I didn't get to class until about 5.45pm.....so in other words I wasted 30mins gas really for nothing.....well I guess the 10pts he gives us for each class wasn't wasted.....another reason I was late, was cos I stopped by the bookstore to get my graduation regalia, and they had closed at 5....which means my sorry ass won't be getting it until the day of graduation cos I refuse to drive 30mins to and fro, because of graduation....I already have to do multiple trips to the airport on Thursday and Friday.....

Speaking of which something has to be said for the fact that must of my friends are guys....especially the ones coming out of town(Thanks so much guys).....I swear this is why I never do parties, cos its always a sausage fest....I love my boys though, they always supporting me in everything I do.....My guy friends have been more encouraging, when I say that I want to be the Minister of Health by 30 than my girl friends, who ask me when will I marry(Don't know, don't care)...........Its amazing to me that I don't have to be a whore to have that many guys around who are sincerely my best friends

Speaking of boys, I have been wanting to tell you since last week....infact I saved this conversation on my bb, just so I could tell you and there was no mistake....So I'm talking to this random guy I know(and I say random cos we not cool like that).....he added my cousin when he seen our pics, said he wanted to talk to me, and she said to add him....and when I tell him I'm not interested(plus his friend likes me & will just kill him) he starts to talk to my cousin......so you can see the dude is already tripping.....So on that fateful day, the conversation goes as follows
A: wassup sweetie? N: I'm gud and u?
A: I'm good at this boring training, teaching me stuff I already know....N:Eya Pele
A: How about them apples? N: What apples? A: My bad, mangoes! N: What mangoes?
A: Cmon....N:Cmon Wat?...........A: Ok, your bust.....

For those of you who don't know me very well, there is small craze in my body and God saved him I was at work and the Spirit of God was on me.....cos the kind of insult I was about to send his way, the next time he sees me, he will quiver and run.....I just told you most of my friends are guys, and they will never ever try that shit with me....shu even my boyfriend wont just randomly ask how about them apples?....and as you can tell, I was so clueless, which is where he should have dropped it....I just asked him in reply, If he was ok? and he sends me a smiley saying he was perfect...and I asked why he was smiling? and the goat is going to say "what is wrong with a compliment? well ttyl" (punk ass, was ready to jet).....And then I tell him "its worse than I thot if you think asking me abt my bust is a compliment, and so you must be insane really, yea bye"....and then dude is going to come back and say that he was trying to be funny and doesn't appreciate my language(lol, at this point I was dying of laughter, cos I could tell he really needed to be schooled)......I told him, it was not funny and it was rude....he goes "some think its funny and some don't", to which I replied.....no respectable girl will ever think its funny, so how about we refrain from saying that ever......dude was lucky that he wasn't near me though, cos I think the slap would have been instant....I am not a violent girl, its just correction/punishment for stupidity like when a child does sumn and u smack him/her.....

I keep telling you I have the best friends ever.....last time I wrote, I said i wasn't ready for graduation....Today my best friend bought me my dress(love u much Oye), Miss L.C got me on the food, Lil Bit, got me on the reception venue, Crazy cousin(miss abi), got me on the shoes and Mums got me on regalia, hair, drinks and whatever else, o and sucker boy(Mr Y.A), got me a Nintendo wii......Can somebody say blessed.....if you get nothing from me, get that God puts you around people for a certain reason and His name be praised for my wonderful friends and family....Be good friends guys, there is a big reward in it.....I cannot wait to be able to replay them back in money and what money cannot buy....

so final exam on Wednesday, after which the plan is to get drunk alone (don't judge me).....never been though and I doubt it cos I wont want to spend money on liquor, but that's the plan....do my hair on Thursday and start getting ready for everybody I have to pick up from the airport later Thursday and all day Friday.....O i almost forgot to tell you that Baptism was great(I keep trying to rbr the last thing on my mind before I went into the water and I can't)...But miss L.C came and I was grateful for that (my bro slept off), took pics and I was going to put it on facebook but it felt weird....

Ok this is the longest post I have written, I am not sure why i am up at this ungodly hour(why do they call it that?), but I know its not cos I am finishing up my project like I should....I am so useless I tell you.....thanks for the encouragement still guys, u have been a blessing., especially for reading this long post......see u soon xxxxxx