Saturday, March 27, 2010
Bear with me!!!
Hellloooooooooo...... how you all doing? Excited for the weekend I hope, I am. My body needs some rest, going to get my hair did (i love to do my hair, wonder what I should do next? done many many diff things with my hair)...hoping to go to a shooting range this weekend as well, that should be fun...otherwise my ass sits at home, as usual....my uncle thinks I need to go out more, like I always say there is nothing I'm looking for outside :)
So, did I ever tell you that a couple days after I blogged abt that boy I know that kept screaming I will have sex with him in my ear, we found out he had appendicitis?... omygosh I felt so bad, although God forgive me I wasn't as sad as I coulda/shoulda been, which is why I felt bad, cos I felt I ought to have been more sad about it...I think Sugarking's prayer worked...lmao
I realize, I never want to come off as proud, vain, conceited or insecure....let's just say those are traits I hate.....I also realize that try as I might and I think I've said this a lot on here, I come off judgmental...what I really want to be doing is encouraging people and I feel like I come off preaching like I'm perfect....I'm far from it, what I am is principled, stubborn and set in my ways.... I reckon that I could never do a talk show(my father will die if he sees that, I told you he wants me to be Oprah)....but nways my point... forgive me, I don't mean to come off as such.
Speaking of shows I ought to tell you, that yours truly will be on a comp near you in abt 4-5weeks. We Plug Good Music (I hope you guys all follow it, we bring the best new music) will be airing on truspot radio, for an hr on Saturdays at a time to be determined, with the best new naija music out there (you already know how mad picky I am about naija songs)...nways be on the lookout for me for new great songs and please let me know, I will let you know what the deal is as I go along (p.s. you get to see my face too, so I guess anonymity is totally out the question now)
Speaking of being judgmental, I said that because of my all thing with relationships. I just believe in some things and I have a hard time relating to other people about it. I know love is not black and white; shu even friendships are not black and white. But I utterly refuse to believe that love is complicated. I refuse. I refuse to think that you ought to be fighting with someone you haven't physically met and all you got is the phone. Isn't that supposed to be the sweetest part of it all? cos you already know you see each other & I don't know why, but fights happen. to be honest I don't understand fights in a relationship, whatever kind of relationship until the person does something he/she knows you don't like, or disappoints you in a monumental way (only other excuse is hormone, or for men, the devil possessed him, lol)....I don't know, I'm given those around me a hard time and I ought to stop, but I just want them to be happy
Random fact about me: I'm uber submissive in a relationship, I don't know why I feel like he(whoever he is) gets to see the me that is gentle, that just wants to be held & not argue, except we having intelligent conversation. In life, business, school, with friends… I'm brutal though heheheh ....is it just me? I wonder if that means I am not showing my real self, but I can honestly say that's me…just seems like the you, you should be to make your relationship, marriage work....people always say that there is the honeymoon stage after which parties involved soon change...I don't see why....p.s. I don't think the honeymoon stage should ever go away until you have kids or monumental issues like financial problems or in-law problems or someone cheats (and gets caught, lol)
Again random: I don't get why females are quick to say that their in-laws can only stay with them for a week only or ish like that. my advice: if his mother(whoever he refers to as such) is alive, you better make sure you have her eating out your hands and you have a guest house at the back somewhere....it might make your life a hella lot easier #imjustsaying
and lastly but not least, speaking of mothers like I said the last time...i need help in broaching the subject of getting remarried to my mum...like you all know she has been divorced more years than she was ever married....I think the Bible says something about you ought not to divorce and then remarry unless your husband is dead or something, but if I remember correctly there is an adultery clause in there...which means my mum can remarry...we are no longer kids, the youngest is 16 and is about to start university...my mum is a beautiful woman, skinny and tall and about to be 50, and men swarm to her in flock, she just has to pick....so what do I tell her? How do I tell her? I really don't want her to grow older alone anymore, I hate knowing she is alone especially when I think of the fuckery that is NEPA in Nigeria....she is not getting any younger and I want to be in my married home, knowing that she is in her married home (does that make sense?)...somedays I think I want to remain single just so we will be together (stupid I know, but I worry about her)
As is my custom it appears I have made this longer than I intended to....before I leave, let me say I won't be on blogger for a bit, because I am studying for the GRE, need to take it in a week or so and applying to schools, hoping God performs a miracle so I can start in September...blame friend for this sudden obsession with skool btw, so I will read your posts but I might not always comment.....will do Music Monday though...o just remembered, he is supposed to do it this mon, yayyyy me
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Thank you all so very much
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