Today i will be talking about wants & needs. Let me run the scenario by you. So i got into school right, and i'm thinking they will let me know who the advisor i will be placed with is and where i sign the dotted lines saying tuition is waived and how much i will get for my stipend and hoping it will be able to cover boarding, food and still have some change, you know dreaming high. Its about a month till school starts and so far nothing, school is telling me funds are limited, am i willing to pay fees. Dole out about 12k in fees as per international student, after doing that all thru undergrad and masters, GOD forbid. Plus the girl i had spoken to over there didn't really encourage me, and asked me if i'm sure i wanted to attend the school. (NEED)
Lately i have been feeling lack-luster, bored, just not content and its even affecting work. Anyone that knows me, knows i hate money, hence my bad not saving habit and my tendency to always give, even when i don't have. But this past week, i want everything. I want to travel, i want new clothes, everybody has a life, i don't, because i don't have money, i'm just complaining like no mans business, about how i just can't up and do things like people around me, worrying about how fees, wants & needs will be taken care of as it will now be 3 of us in the states soon. (WANT)
I feel so ungrateful and worthless right about now. I know God is in control, so why cant i just relax, why is it now that i want everything? Why do i feel like i'm not trusting him completely? Why do i feel like my hope has dwindled and that my faith has reduced to less than a mustard seed? Nways with all this in mind, there is one thing i'm certain of. That i will continue to praise, even when i cant read the Bible or i cant pray other than say Thank you Jesus. I will continue to praise because that song goes "Praise will confuse the enemy/Devil".
So let's PRAISE.
Trading my sorrows - Darrel Evans - I'm playing this song first to
remind myself, that i need to cast all my burdens onto the Lord and to
leave it right there and Joy will come in the morning.
Donnie McClurkin ft Karen Clark Sheard - This song just says to be
Patient, not to worry and to Trust the Lord. Can you guess just how
often i play this song?
Cece Winans - I surrender all - was going through the songs for autoplay
while i was listening to the song above. And i played this, and lets just say
i needed this.
Every Prayer - Israel Houghton ft Mary Mary
He does hear every Prayer, even the silent ones. I believe he is a God
that answers every prayer.
Israel and New Breed - If Not for your Grace - Just stumbled on this
I am where i am, because of his Grace and i know that this same Grace
is sufficient for everything that i need.
Worthy - Femi Jacobs ft Mike Aremu. BB sent me this song some
weeks back and you don't know how grateful i am for that. I play it
every morning on repeat, while i shower or on my way to work.
|07 Worthy (Feat...|
Israel Houghton - Friend of God
Can i just say i feel, so much more better. I'll be back this weekend i think
otherwise, see you on Monday and have a great July 4th Weekend, will try
not to be depressed or sad and enjoy my time at home resting. Be SAFE.
P.S I LOVE YOU