About to hit the sacks and end what was a long and dare i say interesting kind a day but i had to come put this on here real quick. Will respond to the answers from my last post, in the next one, but i can already tell you, you all know me pretty much very well. But that's not why i am here. I am here to use this as medium to God, sometimes my mouth does not say it as good as i write it.
Lord, i need a job. I desperately need a PAYING job. Emphasis on the paying part because i have so many "jobs" and none of them are paying. I am not complaining cos these jobs have given me so much joy, introduced me to many people, given me a name of some sort, i really have been quite lucky. I get to organize events in other countries, i get to write a fashion article and do music reviews, i get to manage an artist. I mean, God you have been awesome to me.
But God, i need a paying job. You see all week i have been extra emotional and feeling bloated and a lil down and i know its because i am not on my pill, like i have been for so many months because i cannot afford it this month. You see, i need to do my hair, i'm beginning to look quite unkempt. I need my textbooks, i mean they are just about 70bucks, it doesn't seem like quite a lot. I need gas in my car, so i can go to church on my own, so i don't have to go with uncle and aunty from 6am-2pm. Yesterday, i broke my mirrors backing out the garage, i have to do this every morning and every night, God its getting quite uncomfortable already, i want my own place. And you know i have to buy my own groceries and needs over here, you don't want me to starve do you? Lord, my car would soon be re-possessed o and then there is rent where my siblings are in Michigan, and bills like tv, and phone and gas.
So God, look down with favor on me and give me a job. A good job, i would prefer full time, but i also don't mind part time. Wednesdays i have 6hours of school nways, so whatever will give me Wednesdays off. I don't mind working weekends, well apart from Sunday. One that pays well above minimum wage, because you know i have a masters. One that will also be relevant to my education. One that will give me the opportunity to glorify your name. And Lord i want this job soon, please God, i am begging with desperate pleas. I ask for this in the name of Jesus and i believe you will answer my prayers. You said we should ask and we shall receive, and you also said we should commit to the Lord whatever we do, and you will establish our plans. You also said you will perfect whatever concerns me and this concerns me. And i believe your word will not come back to you void in Jesus Name. Amen.
And something else i would like to share.....
I know I’m a tad bit emotional right now so maybe this is all in my mind
But it occurred to me today that I’ve never felt desired
You know the passion that drives a man insane to have you at any or all costs.
I mean sure I’ve been liked even loved by many a man, but never wanted or needed
At 24 years of age, this is quite sad and disconcerting.
....... I bet you can't relate
Sigh, nways Good Night and/or Good Morning
P.S I LOVE YOU