Saturday, January 23, 2016

Dancing in the snow...

Quote of the day: "The snow itself is lonely or, if you prefer, self-sufficient. There is no other time when the whole world seems composed of one thing and one thing only." -Joseph Wood Krutch

Ok, not literally its too cold out there for that but I am excited for the snow though and for some very selfish reasons too, LOL.

For one, as part of my first act as the new ministry leader for the singles department at my church (which btw is what happens when you are approaching 30 and can't find a boy to say hi to you, smh) I decided to host people at mine's for dinner and a movie. If you know me, you know it's a scary concept for me. For as much as I love people, I also can't stand people. If you read this blog any, you know I am very contradictory in nature so this shouldn't come as a surprise at all. In a very loose definition, I think I am anti-social but people tell me that is not the case, so I think what it is then is that I get very claustrophobic and I can't even imagine about 20 people (just an estimate, could have been more) in my 1 bedroom apartment. Ironically, I sometimes feel claustrophobic even in a big space, so there's that.

So yes, I was advocating for snow :), plus I think its such a good opportunity to just meditate, read, watch TV and not have to shower :D So far, i'm good on the no shower and the meditating part. Will get to the reading and watching TV part as soon as i'm done here. I'm storming it out at a friend's instead of alone this time though, which is big for me. LOL. She thinks I do too much shakara with my wanting to be alone all the time, which is really not true. She cooks amazing and I love her kids so I figured it was a win - win situation for me, I don't think there's anything in it for her/them :).

So far so good on my 100 days of joy journey. It's amazing how much you find to be thankful for and be joyful for when you make a conscious effort to do so. Sometime's it's in eating a really good meal, having a good  conversation, spending time with my babies, finishing a task especially when it's been overdue, discovering a new show, even adding on more responsibilities. Let's just say the year has started off on a very good note and i'm thankful to God.

E,g Isn't this just so joyful?!. I want to be a giant panda too...

 Now because life is life, I know it's not always going to be sunshine and roses so I have stored some things up for those days. For example, except you are living under a rock or maybe you just don't care you have heard about the Channing Tatum and Jenna Dewan Tatum epic lip sync battle. I already love Channing so I was going to jump and go watch it and then it was all over the news and they hyped it so much and that made me mad but then it occurred to me that I could save it for a rainy day. I DVR the series anyways, so i'm choosing not to watch a single episode this season until I need it. I'm also going to keep a record of the many blessings I, my family or friends I experience this year, so I can always go back to remind myself that 'This too shall pass".

So I confess I've been cheating in my dancing, meaning sometimes I've danced on my seat, but I haven't missed a day yet :), I've been mad busy tho, really trying to accomplish a lot this year. I can tell you though, having to make sure I dance everyday actually feels like work and that's from someone who loves dancing, so there is something to be said for discipline otherwise and determination otherwise one would never do anything.

Otherwise, there really isn't much new. I have an interview coming up next week, and I am expectant that the job is mine in Jesus name. God has heard my cry and answered my prayers, for this I say Thank you Jesus. I will come back to testify and may be there will be juicy news by then.

Still missing IG btw, facebook not so much and I still have about 19 days to go so I'm hoping by then I won't still be missing it.

I think that's about it. Till next time. Be blessed!


Tuesday, January 12, 2016

100 days of Joy

Hi Folks,

I hope your year has indeed started off with a bang. So far so good over here, although and i'm not complaining but I can't understand this weather in Jersey men. This hot and cold thing is so not good for my skin. My lips refuse to get moisturized and my skin stays getting bruised. I had to finally deep condition my hair, after like 2 years (Don't ask). Not complaining tho, because no snow and no ice = Happy Nifty. I have way too many nicknames. Hehehehe!

Nways, I came here to tell you about something I added on to my list as inspired by AJ

The concept is simple: for the next 100 days you are to choose something creative, anything - dance, write, read, draw - literally anything that inspires you and do it consecutively for 100 days. At first I thought it was highly improbable because I think the only 2 things I can say I do consecutively for 100 days is brush my teeth and pee. I can't even say I shower 100 days straight, hello stay at home weekends and I don't go #2 days on end, so there's that. I can say I at least eat something everyday, but some days i'm doing more drinking liquids than actual food so that doesn't count.

Anywhoos, so I thought about it some and I decided to pick the hardest thing ever - because I never can do things the easy way. So there you go, 100 days of Joy. For me, it means making the very conscious decision to be joyful no matter what and thus having to create the avenues that bring me joy.

1 very obvious way for me is music and dancing so for the next 100 days, I will dance everyday for at least 15 minutes to my favorite songs and if you know anything about me you know I have a lot. My favorite songs right now are Olamide - Don't Stop and Adekunle Gold - Pick up Call. I'm in love with them two.

That's as much of a concrete plan as I have right now, the rest will just have to be played by ear.
Its a big mental choice for me, this joy I seek, because though I am not one to ever get down, life can be hard you know, so when i'm getting those rejection letters, and that boy I thought liked me never calls me, and research is kicking my butt, and maybe i'm not losing the weight like I want to, I have to choose Joy.

What will you choose? I am off to boogie for the day.

#Peace. Love. Shakeit

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Fruitful Year, I Wish You...

Happy New Year Folks,

I really did plan to come back before the year 2015 ran out as evidenced by my draft folder (not like you can see it), but I had family over and attending events and church and it all just got busy. I hope you had a wonderful Christmas and started the new year filled with hope and expectations for the year ahead.

After a short stint of depression as December began, that I quickly snapped out of, I began my New Year so joyful. Duh! What do I have to be depressed about? Life although messed up sometimes, is filled with love, hope, joy, peace, food, people, movies, music, kisses and babies. I sound bipolar but I tell you, life is great, we just have to choose to see it and I have so chosen.

I'm so excited for 2016, you should see my list - it's loooonngg!!!. I'll share one from every topic...

  • Lose 20 pounds in 2016. Meaning lose half a pound a week. This will involve going to the gym 3 times a week when not fasting. Making sure that 50% of each meal is filled with vegetables and protein.
  • Begin Young Women Program - I'll tell you about this later.
  • Complete my Thesis & Graduate - This would imply that I have started writing it but I will and I will finish it.
  • Travel to 4 New States and 2 New Countries.
  • Begin a Job/Career - Can someone say Amen!
  • Seek out mentors in the areas of my life I want to grow.
Now on to the Young Women Program. So, if you have read this blog for any length of time then you know, I have been through, and after a lot of prodding by God and I mean a lot of prodding, I have decided to share some of that experience. I haven't quite decided what it should be like, but I am sure God will give me the directions I need. So far, I know I will start at my church, I already have a partner and its from ages 12-22. Any ideas? I'm yet to come up with a name.

In other news, I was introduced to someone who visited the church and I thought that was unfair, because I reckon that before he got a chance to meet me, he had a chance to look around and see all the beautiful girls at my church (and there are a lot of them, I can't even front) and may have wanted any of them and now he's forced to talk to me, even though I might not be his type/desire. Parents/family make this whole thing difficult I tell you. He may have very well liked me on his own though, but I guess we will never know either ways.

I gave up social media and I miss it. It's so weird how dependent one get's on it. Maybe it will make me write more. It's definitely made me watch TV/movies more already. P.s maybe movies aren't so bad after all.

Have I mentioned that there is something so romantic about cooking? I don't do it a lot anymore and especially in my quest to lose weight I often do just the same things, but even at that I am always filled with romance and I find it oddly therapeutic. Today, I watched "Burnt" and I just wanted to quit school and head to Paris to become a Chef. Maybe in another life. 

In this life, I am determined and hopeful and prayerful that this year will be a fruitful one in every area and I do mean every area. 

I think that's it for tonight. We will talk soon.

Quote of the day: "I love to see a young girl go out and grab the world by the lapels. Life’s a bitch. You’ve got to go out and kick ass." — Maya Angelou