Saturday, February 13, 2016

There will be no delay...

I just changed my Linkedin Profile and for the first time I could probably now change my blog name because for the first time since I graduated with my Masters in 2010, I now have a full time job.

God is indeed faithful. I honestly don't have the words to express how much I am grateful. If you have been on this journey with me for any length of time you would 1. rejoice with me and 2. praise God on my behind. 

Life had been mostly a struggle since moving to NJ to start my PhD. 1 step forward and then several steps backward, seemed to be the story every year, especially in the area of my career and a few times it made me question my purpose and my identity and even sometimes my God. God being God was steadfast and faithful to the very end and He would just always show me that He had His hand on me. Though I failed the test every time, yet, His love, grace and compassion carried me all the way through.

I sensed this year, that things will be different. It seems so cliche, but I felt it in my heart and God confirmed it since the very beginning of this year, so I was very expectant and let God know how much so. I tried to do my best in the parts where I needed to and kept my assurance that He is not man that He would lie. He's a good father and He honors His word. 

So I wasn't surprised, and still I wept. I wept to say thank you, I wept to say I am ready for all the other things you have promised me especially for this year in every area of my life and I wept to glorify His name. 

You know the interesting thing is that He is such an on-time God because just before I got my offer letter, I found that what had previously been the source of survival had now dried up. Needless to say 100 days of joy has begun with a bang.

Just want to use this to encourage any one of you who has been waiting for the promise to be fulfilled, I pray in the name of Jesus, according to the word of the Lord in Ezekiel 12: 21-28(read below); there will be no more delays in your life in Jesus name. This is my sincere prayer for you, that there will be no more stagnation in the name of Jesus. Amen!

I thought I had to come and share here especially for my long timers who have had to read me complain for years, this one is ours to the glory of the Lord.

There Will Be No Delay

21 The word of the Lord came to me: 22 “Son of man, what is this proverb you have in the land of Israel: ‘The days go by and every vision comes to nothing’? 23 Say to them, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: I am going to put an end to this proverb, and they will no longer quote it in Israel.’ Say to them, ‘The days are near when every vision will be fulfilled. 24 For there will be no more false visions or flattering divinations among the people of Israel. 25 But I the Lord will speak what I will, and it shall be fulfilled without delay. For in your days, you rebellious people, I will fulfill whatever I say, declares the Sovereign Lord.’”
26 The word of the Lord came to me: 27 “Son of man, the Israelites are saying, ‘The vision he sees is for many years from now, and he prophesies about the distant future.’
28 “Therefore say to them, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: None of my words will be delayed any longer; whatever I say will be fulfilled, declares the Sovereign Lord.’”


Sunday, February 7, 2016

11 Years....

“Carve your name on hearts, not tombstones. A legacy is etched into the minds of others and the stories they share about you.” 

That's how long I have been in this country. Its's also how long I feel like I have loved Peyton Manning. Now that's probably not exactly accurate as I did not particularly know anything about Football for a minute there, but ever since I "virtually" met the Manning Brothers - Eli and Peyton - I have loved them like we were family. I also think Detective Gibbs (NCIS) is my father, so this shouldn't exactly shock you.

It's also why in what promises to be the last game of his career, I couldn't watch it with anyone. I couldn't take it, if he was ridiculously beaten and as I write this, it's half -time (excellent half time performance btw) and the Denver Broncos are leading and I hope and pray it ends this way and I am ready to cry like a baby. I couldn't wish a better gift for my own family, this possibility of ending a superb career in victory.

Why the love? Because I think both Eli and Peyton exude such grace and humility. I can't put into words because I can say that with so much confidence considering I haven't met them, but I just know. I like to think I am a good judge of character, although that's hard to say all that by just observing how they carry themselves on the field, and yet I just know. Especially Peyton! I have read countless stories of just how he has helped teammates, helped young players, and helped the general public in his small way. Over the course of the weeks preceding the SuperBowl, everyone has talked about him with almost some sort of reverence, not just his personal life but also the legacy he has amassed in the NFL. You can just tell, he is often the leader in any room and yet the most humble. Needless to say I would love to meet him and I would love for him to win this game. I keep switching stations every 2 minutes, I am so nervous.

It made me think though that despite my best intentions I have not generally been drawn to a man like that and that's just sad. Maybe part of it is also the fact that I have often not participated in my relationships. By that I mean, I typically meet a guy, he already likes me and so I just go with it, as long as there's nothing "harmful" about him. After the last guy, I made a promise to myself to actively choose the guy, even if it has been ordained by the gods. The gods better communicate that to me as well and you better also be humble, gracious and kind.

My nervousness for Peyton aside, the other reason I am not out at either of 2 possible Superbowl parties is because as an Introvert-Extrovert the way I recharge is by bring a recluse. I typically need 24 hours without human contact to get my mind and soul recharged.. When I'm out, I suspect no one can tell that I'm affected one way or the other and inside all I can think of is sitting down on my couch naked, my current situation as I speak :).

In other news, trying to be really focused with my school work which after another year away from school, has been very tough but God's grace abounds in my weakness and I am praying for a fruitful next couple of weeks. Also, praying for supernatural supply and provision - rent is due, so say a prayer for me.

Random - I haven't been to the movies this year yet. Considering going the entire year without doing it. I am also going to be cable cutting. Was going to do it a few days ago but couldn't take the chance of the internet screwing up and not being able to watch the game.

God is a good good father and He's perfect in all his ways. I just wanted to remind you of that. Wishing you an amazing week and may God's favor surround you as a shield  in Jesus name.